Tuesday, September 19, 2006
~ 4:01 PM ~
Wow!!! Finally i m back and the prelims have ended haha kind of relief now... and i learned something really precious this prelims...
I admit i kind of did last minute studying for this prelim exams... i wasn't prepared at all for the exams... and i really panicked last minute but praise GOD! It just feels like He has been with me throughout my exams. i even looked forward to the papers i dreaded most. Speaking to Him really works! He is always able to calm me down when i need it most. I have never felt so calm before when i m having such major examinations.
I know sometimes when you pray, you are just not sure whether He is gonna help you, whether He really answers to your prayers but for me, everytime after I prayed, i always say "I Believe! and I Receive!" and lastly of course say " Thank You God!" because you just know that He has answered your prayers already before you even see it. Just wait and see He never fails.... cos He is the Almighty God that no one can compare!
From accepting Christ without exactly knowing whether it is peer pressure or am i really touched (i did kind of sobbed you may not see it cos i hide it as it feels quite embarrassing... haha) to feeling really skeptical about Him, to thinking of reverting back to being a free thinker, to going into a hibernation period (P.s. it means not going to church for a relatively long period of time) to.....(*Can't continue) I guess most new believer goes through it but gradually you will start seeing God's grace and goodness flowing into your life like me! My faith has been growing stronger and stronger each day. It just feels good knowing that He is always by your side accompanying you, helping you and cheering you up. And praising and worshipping Him really makes you feel good... you dun have to have the big and beautiful stage, the beautifully synchronised choir, the powerful lead singers, the awesome band and lots of people (like my church) to be there before you can worship. You can always do so as and when you feel like... even if it's just humming, singing softly or even reciting the lyrics of a song to Him you will still feel good!
Haha non-believers call me whatever you like ... Holy freak, holy women, holy s***(kind of vulgar sorry!) whatever you like i don't care cos i have seen His goodness flow in me and that's enough! Of course this kind of like spiritual kind of things is usually kind of unbelievable unless you have experience it yourself so why not come see and feel for yourself! haha
Lastly i shall end with a quote:
*The path of the just is like the shining sun, That shines ever brighter unto the perfect day.*
* The way of the wicked is like darkness; They do not know what makes them stumble.*
Proverbs 4:18-19
God bless!
Shu
