Friday, December 01, 2006
~ 11:52 AM ~
Been a while since i last blog... realise blogger has kind of change and was kind of lost... dunooe wat beta and google stuff...lol
Recently i have been spending lots of time with my family... really lots of time.. and have experience things that i have never really experience in my life...pass few days, i have been at home and since my bros and dad r having their off-days and their girlfriends(future sisters-in-laws) come often... it's really time for us to bond. I really enjoy being with my family and i thk i've got a really great family... i may have whined abt my mum's nagging, my dad and my bros... but this holiday has really allowed me to spend quality time with them... Yesterday we went to the opening of IKEA Tampines... It's been ages since we go out together as a family to shop... All thanks to my bro's new hse and my rotting kitchen cabinets... And today is my dad's b'day... we'r gonna have steamboat at home and i m sure today would be great too!
Friends, do pardon me if i reject your offer to go out together... I just have the urged to stay at home and i want to, for the time being, juz leave my social life aside 1st... it's really a great opportunity to spend time with my family...
Until now, i am still not very use to being a Christian... Having to travel all the way to church... And there's not juz sunday service but there's bible study, caregroup, campus... sometimes i feel tired juz thking of all these and it often clashes with my family outing... making a decision between family and my faith is difficult... also it can take up like nearly half my week... and i still doubt whether Christianity is what i want... Tired tired tired...
But juz yesterday, i realise sth... that Christ has been etched in my heart... I may not be as enthusiastic as my sisters and brothers in Christ... i may not go to church as often and attending the bible study/caregroup/campus... sometimes i even dread going to church... but this does not mean that i dislike being a Christian... i had this weird dream just yesterday... it's difficult to tell u my dream so when i have the chance i will tell the dream in person... anyway i was in desperate help and need... i was kind of like in a killing ground and i really needed help... in the past the 1st person i would call to would of course be my mum... but this time i juz shouted JESUS, JESUS! and i started to pray in tongues... ... reflecting upon the dream... this shows that He is in me already... He is in my heart... i may not be a church-goer or an enthusiastic Christian... but i know that He is with me and in me... there's no need to explain and no explaination is needed.....
Shu
